sorry
i really hate how bad i am at staying in touch with people. i want healthy, meaningful relationships with my friends, but it’s hard for me to fully show up sometimes. i do want to talk to you, it’s just that i don’t always have the energy. i want to hang out, but sometimes being alone feels easier. i’ll read your messages, but i’m not always in the right headspace to reply right away. then when i finally do have the energy and want to reach out, i get anxious because i feel like i already pushed you away and you might not like me anymore. so i end up staying quiet instead. it makes me feel selfish and a bad friend. im sorry.